Kurt住到了父亲家。在继母和父亲劝说下他参加了海军征兵考试。他被录取，但在签字
之前他收拾东西，从父亲家扬长而去。
他终于无家可归，游荡在窒息的阿伯丁街巷，困倦时他蜷缩在阿伯丁北桥的桥洞中睡去
。在这里他就着余阳看完了Arthur Rimbaud（兰波）、William Burroughs （？）、S.
E.Hinton（？）的著作， 风雨寒夜中他躺在土坑里期望着日出时的温暖。饥饿了他从威
西卡河暗绿的河水中钓些小鱼充饥：多年以后北桥桥墩上当年Kurt留下的涂鸦和文字，
将被谱成一首叫做something in the way 的娓娓动听的歌。
但Courtney的感受却完全不同，今后她不敢再沾毒品，起码要为了腹中的胎儿。
戒瘾后，涅磐又聚到了一起，拍摄了Come as you are的MTV，同样非常成功。几天后，
开始亚太地区巡演：澳大利亚、新西兰、新加坡、日本、夏威夷。旅行中Kurt的胃病再
次折磨着他，当他在饭店门口痛的蜷缩成一团时，同伴们却以为他犯了瘾才这样狼狈。
他感到狂怒，别人不理解他。他失去理智，分不清关心和鄙夷的区别。他觉得所有人都
对他有恶意，甚至最亲近的Krist也如此。
9月，众人翘首以待的新专辑终于先在英国、然后在美国发行了。开始Kurt想将专辑取名
为I hate myself and i want to die，这句话是他用来回答问及下一步打算作什么的标
准答案。连Krist都认为“这也忒狠了点，小子们会照办，而我们会被起诉。”最后终于
被更名为In Utero。
10月，涅磐开始了两年来第一次全国巡演。巡演中乐队请来了已为第二吉他手，The Ge
rms乐队的Pat Smear。同时还有一位大提琴手Lori Goldston。他们让涅磐的音乐的到了
更丰满的效果。Kurt其实是喜欢于他的听众在演出中交流的，当他全身心的投入到他所
爱的音乐中时，他感受到了一切：“那是一种我所经历过的所有感情的混合，那是愤怒
，那是死亡，那是整个的狂喜，就像我还是个无忧无虑的小孩向警察扔块石头后跑开时
那么快活。”
Speaking from the tongue of an experienced simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile camplainee.
This note should be pretty easy to understand. All the warnings from the punk rock 101 courses over the years. Since my first introduction to the, shall we say, ethics involved with independence and the embracement of your community has proven to be very true. I haven't felt the exitement of listening to as well as creating music along with reading and writing for too many years now. I feel guilty beyond words about these things. For example when we're backstage and the lights go out and the manic roar of the crowd begins it doesn't affect the way in which it did for Freddy Mercury who seemed to love and relish in the love and adoration from the crowd. Which is something I totally admire and envy. The fact is I can't fool you. Any one of you. It simply isn't fair to you or me. The worst crime I can think of would be to rip people off by faking it and pretending as if I'm having 100 % fun. Sometimes I feel as if I should have a punch in time clock before I walk out on stage. I've tried everything within my power to appreciate it, and I do. God, believe me I do but it's not enough.
I appreciate the fact that I and we have affected and entertained a lot of people. I must be one of one of those narcissists who only appreciate things when they're gone. I'm too sensitive. I need to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasm I once had as a child. On our last three tours I've had a much better appreciation for all the people I've known personally and as fans of our music, but I still can't get over the frustration, the guilt and empathy I have for everyone. There's good in all of us and I think I simply love people too much. So much that it makes me
feel too fucking sad. The sad little, sensitive, unappreciative, pisces Jesus man! Why don't you just enjoy it? I don't know. I have a goddess of a wife who sweats ambition and empathy and a daughter who reminds me too much of what I used to be.
Full of love and joy kissing every person she meets because everyone is good and will do her no harm. And that terrifies me to the point to where I can barely function. I can't stand the thought of Frances becoming the miserable self-destructive, death rocker that I've become. I have it good, very good, and I'm grateful, but since the age of seven I've become hateful towards all humans in general. Only because it seems so easy for people to get along, and have empathy. Empathy! Only because I love and feel for people too much I guess. Thank you all from the pit of my burning nauseous stomach for your letters and concern during the past years. I'm too much of an erratic, moody baby! I don't have the passion anymore and so remember, its better to burn out than to fade away. peace, love, empathy.
Kurt Cobain
Frances and Courtney, I'll be at your alter.
Please keep going Courtney
For Frances
For her life which will be so much happier without me. I Love you. I love you!
草莓和星轨强烈推荐~~~
Kurt Cobain
Kurt Cobain。公认的世界上最有魅力摇滚男人
他在写过这些字之后吞掉了一把枪……
Kurt Cobain
KURT COBAIN 在COBAIN的母亲WENDY的记忆中，永远有着一副美好的画面，一个无忧无虑的七岁男孩昂首阔步神气活现的在家门外走来走去，胸前用皮带束着把贝斯，一边使劲猛敲一边扯着嗓门唱着“HEY JUDE”。这时的COBAIN可以说是每天都在快乐中度过的。但好景不长，1975年，也就是说COBAIN8岁的时候，WENDY和DONALD，COBAIN的父亲，一个脾气恶质的机械师，离婚了。从此，COBAIN开始了辗转于几个姨妈和爷爷奶奶之间，田诗班的生活一去不复返了。（NIRVANA1990 SINGLE “SLIVER”：爸? 十几岁时，COBAIN开始栖息在朋友家门前的纸箱里和桥洞里（“SOMETHING IN THEWAY/NEVERMIND”），这时他的表演才能也渐渐显露，成立了的一个乐队FECAL MATTER。KURT 似乎对同自己有相似童年经历的人更具亲和力；COURTNEY LOVE的父母在她一岁时就分手了，KRIST NOVOSLIE KURT的音乐，他的诗和他最终的自我毁灭所流露的那种无可就要的绝望，仅仅是因为有一个不幸的家庭似乎不太有说服力，也许他生命中最后几年里那种无法言说的痛苦才是真正的答案。他曾说：“我会以睡觉来逃避痛苦，而醒来时我会诅咒自己还活着。”
NIRVANA涅盤
Nirvana 经典瞬间
涅盤的Kurt Cobain
Nirvana（涅盤）是一支极受爱戴的摇滚乐队，摇滚史上最佳朋克专集之一，乐队配合的天衣无缝，把KURT COBAIN 内心的狂燥、愤怒、压抑、扭曲、病态、激烈的矛盾冲突完全显示了出来，同时也也反映了KURT温柔、感性的一面。使GRUNGE风暴达到了极点，接近燃烧。KURT COBAIN后自杀，留下绝唱。
Kurt Cobain十年祭：Nirvana改变世界8大件事
Kurt Cobain离开人世10年，他过去旧专辑的累积销售已经高达1200万张，也就是说在完全没有宣传的情况下，他的作品几乎平均每个月都还能在全球卖出15万张。音乐杂志《Q》以30页特别报导大篇幅书写Kurt Cobain成就的《Q》，还制作一个“Nirvana改变这个世界的八大件事”专题，描述“Nirvana”的重要性：
柯特·科本（ Kurt Cobain） ，涅槃（NIRVANA）乐队灵魂人物，是摇滚乐坛Grunge 风格的代表者.
涅槃”共有6张专辑， 分别为《Bleach》《Nevermind》《Incesticide》《In Utero》《Unplugged in New York》《From the Muddy Banks of Wishkah》，尤以带来巨大成功的《Nevermind》最 为著名，同样深受乐迷喜爱的就是《Unplugged in New York》这是“涅槃”在MTV台“不插电”演出的实况录音专辑， 其优美的旋律及强烈的感染力使人留恋往返，目前这六张专辑市面上均有销售。想进一步更深地了解柯特本人经历的朋友，还可以看一看郝舫所著的《灿烂涅槃》一书。
一、童年 
八、没事 
Kurt Cobain
Nirvana 经典瞬间
涅盤的Kurt Cobain
